you're in time for the show
you're the one that i need, i'm the one that you loathe
dear diary, i think there's something wrong with me.
i can't concentrate. i can't think about anything. i hear strange buzzing noises in the back of my head. they don't talk, they're just always there, fuzzing up my thoughts and my head. i don't think i'm going crazy - there's no little voice telling me to kill myself or other people, it's driving me mad though. it's like a constant head ache, always throbbing under the surface. either that or i'm imagining things.
i saw something that made me wonder about everything this morning. it was a bit sunny, so there was light coming in from the windows into the corridor at charms - nothing unusual about that. but there was dust floating about everywhere. i know that dust is dead skin, but does that mean there's bits of me floating about everywhere, touching other people?
i bet some girls would hyperventilate if they knew that a bit of sirius black was touching them.
it's strange, i've been back a school for around three or four days now and i haven't really spoken to anyone properly. i keep drifting off when any of my housemates, or even cameron or teddy talks to me. i have used that chat thing to talk to a few people though, it's a bit strange, being able to talk to someone without seeing them but i guess i'll have to get used to it. i think muggles invent some wonderful things because they don't have magic, like this chat thing.
how about my love life? well, still as non existant as last year. sure a couple of crushes, but nothing exciting. it would be nice to fall in love this year though, considering it's my last year and all. speaking of this year, i'm sitting my NEWTs and i must say, i'm dreading them. some exam i do when i'm seventeen effects my whole life, crazy or what?
sometimes, when i think of what i'll do when i leave school i get all excited and happy, but then i'll think of all the memories and people i'll leave behind and it makes me want to cry. i don't want to lose contact with any of my friends and it'll be so weird if i don't see everyone every day, like i've been used to for the past six years.
well, charms homework calls, i've got to be off.
- bree