My Dad has been battleing a stage 4 brain tumor for two years. In the last week he has been diagnosed with pancriatitis. Even if he gets past the infection he will still have the brain tumor, and because of the infection he will no longer be able to take his chemo therapy. So it isn't a matter of if my dad will die, it is a mater of when he will die. A few weeks, or a couple months that is what we are talking.

I am very close to my dad so this is extrodinarily difficult on me. I know at least Blood knows what my family is going through. Sorry to saddle my baggage on everyone.

However I plan to keep posting as much as I can. In other words I plan to stay on the grid.

Than you for your support.

I feel for you Weltall2. God do I feel for you.

I am so sorry to hear about it. not that my saying so will do anything but I feel for you.

As for saddleing us with your baggage. I see the lair as a group of friends almost as close if not as close as a family. So we are here for you.

Ghreckers is exactly right

Agreed, most of us have had some sort of personal loss at some point during the time we've been lair members since the place has been going for long enough. If you need anything we can manage or feel like talking, we're here bud. You have my condolence's.

Welt.. as someone who went through something similer recently, You have my full support in this. My own father was a great man, and my greatest friend in this world.. loosing him was a terrible blow to me.. and I can only imagine that when you loose your father it will be the same way.

Atleast you have the benifit of being told 'it's only a matter of time' when you can still hug and talk to your dad and let him know how you feel. When I was told that it was only a matter of time, my own father was too far gone to be reached... and his was a sudden and terrible fall into darkness.

But enough about my father.. this post if about yours. I wish you and your family the best of luck here.

Well as per usual things have changed around pretty fast. My dad is actually improving. I checked in with him yesterday and today, and he is in stable condition. His blood sugar is down by by 40 pts. I think, and he is able to talk with greater ease. He is still in a good amount of pain; but that is because they switched out the morphine injections for a morphine patch. The benifit of this is the patch will gradualy release a continuous dose of meds for 3 days. He is fighting the infection very well, and on the up side this will not be a chronic infection. He will not have a pancreas though. On the other hand those who retain there pancreas with this infection suffer from immense pain, and I would never want my dad to endure that. Things arte looking up, and the feel I am geting from the doctors is there may be a way to handle the tumor, as well.

The lesson here is never give up! The human body is a very strange and unpredictible machine, not even doctors know everything. Also the fact I am finally taking responsiblity for my obligations is reliveing a great deal of stress on him. That brings me to my advice for anyone who has a sick loved one, if you handle the problems you avoid up to that point and take the strain of your loved ones it makes all the difference.

We're here for ya always Welt, no need to worry about that.

5 years ago, this year, I lost my own father to Cancer, so I definitely know how it feels. My advice to you is to spend every second you can with him and if you have any issues, you work them out while you still can so when he does leave, you can know it's a clean passing with nothing left undone. There are a few things that I would've liked to have said, but didn't get the chance. Don't make that same mistake.

I'll be praying for you and your father to have as much quality time as possible. And like the others have said, if you ever wanna take, I'm here too. ^_^

Thank you all.

I just called my aunt minutes ago, and she said he was doing better, and I talked with my dad a little he was a little bit irritable today. However his voice was stronger, and he is more cognicent (sp) this is a very good thing as his tumor effects this function. So the fact that he is able to converse even a little is very good.

That's very good news to hear. I hope you and your father have a good day today.

Sometime last night they found a blood clot in an artery leading to the pancreas. So this is most likely it, my dad has maybe 12 hours left to live. I feel so cheated.

We're here for you Welt,no matter what

Yeah... these things have a habit of doing that.. We're so desperate to keep them, they we give any little chance of success our all.. and when it looks like it's working, we're happy.

Then something else happens.. and boom.. They're gone.

We're here for ya, Welt, no matter what happens.

At 6:55 my dad was declared deceased. I appreciate your thoughts and wishes.

I was more or less redy for this. I am going to be moving in the next few weeks. So sometime soon I will be offline for awhile. This is until I find an apartment.

I am starting to feel the stress lifting, so I will be on more I think. It has been a great help to talk with you all during this time.

Our hearts are with you, Welt.. I went through this exact thing recently.. and I know how hard it must be right now.

Atleast you'll always have the memories, right?

Thank you Blood, I would have liked my dad to talk to you, or meet you.

Believe it or not but he was a lot like you, probably worse, but hey he had a 20-30 year head start.

Talk to us any time bub, we've got yere back any day of the week.

I'm very sorry to hear that, Welt. It's never easy losing a loved one. I'm glad you were prepared for this and that you are feeling it less. The guys were right, we'll all be here if you need to talk. Until then, take care of yourself and get things straight.

Blood was right, too. You'll always have the memories. Cherish them.

"And God looked down and a single tear fell from his eye; For one of his children was no more. And God then said, 'I shoult bleeseth the family my child has left behind; For I have the power to mend their broken hearts.'"

I'm sorry for your loss. A toast to Welt's dad. :beers:

Agreed GB.
And yeah Welt, talk any time you feel like it, and as much time as you need to get yourself sorted. I'm sorry we couldn't do more for you.

Thank you for your thoughts. I as an individual do not have a very religous out look. However I appreciate the effort.

My dad was one of a kind, and like I said he was a lot like blood if you can imagine a person more deranged than him. :D

Dad was one funny guy, but he also as I said earilier a great teacher. His is a great loss.

Further Great men linke him are many times underappreciated in their time. He was a very talented individual.

Sorry to hear about your dad. He sounds like he was a pretty cool guy. My dad was also a pretty crazy guy though not quite on the same level as I am.