Judgement day

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Don't judge me.I'm not the person you see here.

I'm smiling to you but I'm crying inside.

I have two
personalities.

Don't judge,when you've only
seen one.

I try no to worry
which one
is shown.

Don't judge me,you don't even know me!

You laugh and say i'm mad,
'you'll regret that!' i scream.

You shouldn't have judged me,
'i warned you!' I yell.

I sit there letting the real me come out.

It's too late now.
Now it's your turn to cry.

You didn't even know the real me,I swear!

I promise if I had one more day,I would let the real me be shown.

Too late now.

I've done it.
You said you wouldn't care.

It's time for you to cry.

I've hidden my anger and tears for too long,
now i've put them all in this poem.

I've done it now,I haven't got long left.

I sit waiting until those few glorious seconds,
i've been waiting for soo long,
I think it's nearly time.

As I write,
I will plan what I shall do.

Say a few words and names,first the names I fear;
sarah,
amy,
shanon
and felicity.

Then the names of people I love;
samantha,
steven,
ashley
and gemma.

I sit waiting,
waiting,
waiting
and I was still waiting.

It's here!

My chest gets tighter,
i'm finding it hard to breathe.

My stomach starts to ache,
my vision keeps coming and going.

My ears pop,
I can't hear.

I fall to the floor holding my journal tight to my chest.
with my last breath i whisper 'i warned them.'

I close my eyes and think my already planned thought.

Don't judge me,you don't even know me!

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~~xxLouisexx~~