Where my tears can't find you

Shortstory by WhiteAndie/WhiteMagnolia
ALl the rights reserved
I do not own Elijah, or Orlando, or any other famous people in the story
i do own Claudia, and it all come from my little mind ...
Do not copy please.. be true!
This is fiction! and for the last thing, this is PG13, i guess you can read it
but i warn you ... it's sad


Everything is so dark, everything is so empty. And I feel lonely. I’m alone. Nobody is by my side. I’ve lost my love. I’ve lost my best friend. I’ve lost my partner and my half. Now I’m just alone in the world where everything remembers me his face.

Orlando came close to me and offered me a hug. I can’t refuse it. I hugged him so hard while the tears falls from my eyes to my cheeks and then to his shirt.

-Shh, Claudia, everything will be ok.

I don’t see the true in his words. I can hear that even he doesn’t believe it. Will everything be ok? How? How will everything be ok? Is he coming back to us? He was his friend too. I know. He was mine too, and then little by little I started to love him, to fall completely in love with him, his smile, his touch, and his eyes. I fell and I drown in his sea, in his ocean, with the stars like his eyes and the sun in his smile.

The bouquets of flowers cover your path, Elijah, as you covered mine. I searched for you everywhere until I found you in the place I’d never look for. You were there for me, while I looked for someone like you in other places. I looked for you and I’ve never found you, but then you came to me walking, talking, and I fell for you. And I could see again, I saw you. And I loved you.

But you won’t see me again. You’re there lying in the coffin, your blue and mysterious eyes closed forever, someone killed their light. Your smile lost in the eternity and your voice lost in the silence. I won’t see you again. You’re gone.

-Come here Claudia, the ceremony is going to start.

Billy took my arm and took me to my sit: next to Hannah and by Liv side.

We were your life Elijah, and now you’re gone. Are you really gone? Or are you hiding from us? Are you playing like the way you used to play? Is this a kind of actuation? Are you coming out from that hiding door that I can’t find? Are you coming back to me Elijah? Are you? Am I going to see you again?

Your kisses, your hugs, your voice, your eyes; single things, a lot of things, unforgotten stuff that make me realize how alive you were, how happy I was, how I need you now, how I need you then. You were, you are, you will, be my force, my origins, my love, and my lost. You are going to be my soul and my hell, the heaven and the cries. You’re my everything, you will be my everything, and you will be me.

The father is talking and talking. Everyone is crying. Where are you? Why I am not crying? Why I just can’t feel that you’re really gone? Why I still expect that you are behind that door, waiting for me? waiting to hug me, to kiss me, to bring me back to life.

Oh I know, this is all a dream. I’m really lying next to you in our bed. That’s this entire thing. You’re not lying in that sad coffin; you’re hugging me in my sleep. That’s why I’m feeling you so close yet so far, so mine yet so yours. That’s why I can’t see you. Because you’re in the real world while I’m in this nightmare world.

Are you dead? The father talked about you being death. Are you Elijah? Aren’t you coming back? This is not true, you’re not death.

Viggo talked about and accident. Accident? You didn’t have a car crash. You’re waiting for me. You never arrived but you never leave. Flowers? Why there so many flowers? Why there are so many candles? Your eyes Elijah, wake up, I’m feeling cold.

Where are they taking you? Why they closed the door, why I can’t see your face? Would I see your eyes again? Why everyone is crying? Don’t cry he is not gone. He is with me, he will be with me. He can’t go.

Orlando hugged me, why he is crying? I’ve never heard him cry. Why are you crying Orlando? Why my voice doesn’t come out? Why I can’t hear myself? I only hear you Elijah. Where are you Elijah?

Why the men is putting you down in the hole. Why we are at the memorial park? I want to go back, I want to lie in you arms all night, I want to feel your kisses in my neck and I want to smell your funny essence.

Don’t close the hole. Don’t leave him there. He won’t be able to come with me! Why you want him to stay there? This is a cold, cold place, this is sad. Elijah, show them! Show them that you’re alive! That you wouldn’t leave me! That you’re not dead!

Elijah? Love? Where are you? Why everyone is leaving? You can’t leave us! Please, come back to me! Please love! Don’t leave me in this cold world. You’re my life, you’re mine. Don’t leave me love, come back to me. I need you. How do you expect me to survive without your sweet words? Or without you funky music and your amazing eyes. How do you want me to live if you were my life?

You’re gone. I lost you in the infinite. You flied away leaving me alone. You were like a caught bird in a golden prison. I still need you Elijah, I’m going to search you, I’m going to find you and I’ll be with you again, forever and for always. The death didn’t tear us apart. Anyone in the world torn us apart, and the death isn’t more strong that ourselves. I’ll go for you Elijah, I’ll go for you and I’ll hug you, because you’re never been so far apart yet so close to me, so mine yet so yours. I’ll be yours Elijah, I’ll be yours my funky monkey, and you’re mine. Until the silence and the loneliness, and the sadness and the fear, where my tears don’t reach you, and where my voice isn’t hear. That’s where you’re Elijah, and there I’ll find you, waiting for me, the same way I waited for you all my life.

u mean girl!!! u made me cry... :cry:

i love this kind of ss... sad and filled with love at the same time

the way u showed how she felt with every single though in her mind, the reactions of the friends
everything, it was perfect.

and i was listening to a love song, which added the "magic" to my room

congratulations girl, this is just... :cry:

thank u for making this, i love it and i enjoyed a lot reading it

i hope u win!!! u totally deseve it!!!!!!!!!

Hmm...

honey... i love you so much! but can i tell you something?

this wasn't the contest story ... .... :unsure:

the name is The voice whispered to the wind ...

however this was in a contest too... but in another forum

but i still love you! cause you like it ! and i love you even so!

luvly
ANdie!