Feels Like Home
Pg13

Copyrighted by WhiteAndie, White Magnolia or Andie Basanez.

The song is from CHantal Kreviazuk (sp?) so i took it just for the song, i don't own Billeh, but i own the girl. This is fiction, remember it!


Something in your eyes makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself in your arms

I walk today to my office. The sun shines over my face making my cheeks a little bit red by the warm feeling that it gives to me. My eyes are red because the tears I spread the last night and the sadness I got out of myself in the dark sky of my room.

There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts the rest of my life

And I think about you.

Now that you’re far away from my arms and now that I can’t feel your lips upon mine, or your eyes staring at mine. I miss you. I miss you like nothing else that I’ve ever missed before. I got used to your body in the other side of my bed and I missed the coffee essence you used to do every morning, a cup of coffee and two biscuits, our breakfast.

The wind is cold and I look for refuge in a café near the park, just few steps from my place.

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone

I came into the café and I sat down in a table next to the mirror. I watch the people walking in the sidewalk and I smiled at your memory.

I remember the times we spent together, and the times that are coming to us, for us, for our lives. I asked to the waitress for a mokacchinno and a muffin, because when I woke up in the morning your coffee essence was lost and no biscuits were in the kitchen, or the table next to our bed. And I miss you.

If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It’s so difficult to see what you have until you see it far away. I never realized how you were into my life, how my life was into you for so long now, until you’re gone. When I drink my coffee I think about you, when I see the snow, I think about you, when I listen to music I listen to you. I might think that this sickness and this feeling is your fault and my fault: I let you get into my mind and my life so easily that I didn’t realize it until now. I need you to survive.

It Feels like home to me
It Feels like home to me
It Feels like I'm all the way back where I come from

The sky is now gray and little snowflakes are falling from the eternity of the sky. I smiled at the memory of the snowflakes on our bodies and the heat that we shared in so many lonely nights, cold and dark, but those nights had never been as cold and dark as these nights that I’ve spent without you.

I asked for another coffee. I feel this cold feeling inside me and the coffee it’s the only thing that could ever stop it. the coffee and your memories, the coffee and your touch, the coffee and your kisses.

It Feels like home to me
It Feels like home to me
It Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

I knew from the very first time I saw you that this was going to be difficult. But I knew for the very first time that we were real, that these feelings that I’ve been feeling from 2 years to now is true. And that even if you’re away you think about me as the same time I think about you. And even if your work is hard and you fly far away from me almost every night, only a night for us is necessesary to show me the love you feel for me, or a phone call with the words that I need to hear, or the little details and kisses you bring me everytime you come back to me, just to go back to our room and share the most intimidate moments in all the days you were gone, just to show each other that the distance is nothing between us but a challenge, and that we’re stronger than it, and that this love we share is stronger than it.

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night

I used to spend so many nights fearing from us. fearing about losing what we have and fearing from all the things I thought I couldn’t live without, incluiding you. But when you went back to my arms, when I saw your smile as my imagine and when I hear your voice full of emotion I realize that my fears were useless, my fears of lost were absurd, and that I was just fearing of a nightmare, in the very deep of my fears, but not real; and I realized that when I saw you again I was waking up from the nightmare just to see the reality, my reality: you.

But I'm alright cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there is light

I paid the check and I went out the café.

I walk through the busy streets of Edinburgh and I smiled at the memory of you laugh and I I blush as the memory of your kisses. I walk through the center watching every store and feeling amazed by the lights all of them have to celebrate our favorite holiday: Christmas.

I wonder when my life became into this? When I stopped believing in the theories I used to have before and when I put them away just to let love into my life. When? When I met you.

I used to think that been in love was something stupid to do, because I saw the heartbreaking memories and the cold hearts in my life that I just had the opportunity but to fear to love. Until you arrived.

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch

I touched gently my lightly swollen belly and I imagine how wonderful our life it’s going to be with this baby in our life.

We’ve been together for two years, happily married for one year and I don’t regret any single moment. I don’t regret any single trip you’ve made because every single time you’re back to me it’s like if we’ve been together since forever. We’re perfect together. And the love you give me every single minute keeps me alive for another thousand times. And I don’t get tired of it.

If you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

Billy, I love you, and I love our life and I love our baby and I love you more than anything in my life. You made me realized how pretty Scottish sky was and how green our grass is. You made me love your accent and I starting loving scotish food even if I’m not Scottish. I started to give importance to the stars full night sky and I found the very single detail in every single winter day, just like this one, so I could remember you all the time you traveled away from us. I got used to your early mornings and I got used to your party days. I got to love your smile and the way you treat me like a princess since you realized that we weren’t alone. And I love your eyes, and I love you funny thing you do for me when I’m down. And I love you in every single way you just can’t imagine, just like now, that I’m speaking for you in my mind.


It Feels like home to me
It Feels like home to me
It Feels like I'm all the way back where I come from

My phones rings.

-Hello?

-Hello my beautiful lad..!!!

And I smiled at the sound of your voice, because in this winter day all I was thinking about was you.

nice...i love the describing!

Awww that was sweet. Nice story.

Aww, this was very sweet and adorable. Just made me love Billy all the more! :laugh: Great job!

everytime I read our stories I have the confirmation of your talent. Great and full of feeling as always!! I just want to hug this poor guy... :cry:

Thanks !! my girls!!

*hugs*

Poor Billeh ...

my Billeh ....

LoL

Thabks for reading! you're the best!

luvly
Andie!