A/N: I wrote this some months ago and just got around to posting it. It is a shorite based on the song My Immortal by Evanesence. The song is not in here but it inspired me to write this. Enjoy and review.
Rated R for Sexual Content
My Immortal Love
I walked down the snow covered path to cemetery. I had a small bouquet of roses in my left hand and a drawing from our daughter in the other. I pulled my coat tighter to my body as the wind picked up slightly and snow started to fall again. It was Christmas Eve and I left little Elizabeth back home asleep with Mum and dad watching over her. It has been nearly 1 year since her death and I needed to visit her again tonight. As I walked through the iron gates and to the back of the cemetery I saw the statue of an angel and then her small tombstone below it. I walked over to it with tears burning in the back of my eyes and once I had reached her tombstone, I placed the roses at the foot of it with the drawing of a scribbled angel and kissed my gloved hand and pressed it to the tombstone which read:
Kathleen Williams-Bloom
April 27th, 1982- January 7th 2006
A young bright woman, a beautiful wife, a wonderful mother
“Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind…”
-William Shakespeare: A Midsummer Night’s Dream
My Angel
I let the tears finally fall from my eyes as I remembered her and our short time together. We met on the set of Pirates 5 years ago….
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“Orlando! You need to get into make-up and get ready for your cave scene!” Gore called knocking on my dressing room door. I sighed and jumped up from my couch and left to head over to the make-up trailer. As I walked in I noticed it wasn’t the usual hustle and bustle of the many extra’s and cast members getting make-up on, it was only me and another girl in the make-up chair next to mine. I sat down and noticed she was reading OK! Magazine and I rolled my eyes.
“Hello.” I said politely to her and she looked up her blue eyes sparkling slightly and had a brilliant beautiful white smile on her face.
“Hi.” She said and then she went back to reading her magazine and then she gasped and then dropped her magazine, “Oh shit! Mr. Bloom, I’m so sorry I didn’t realize it was you! Please take a seat.” She said jumping up and throwing her magazine on the counter and I looked at her puzzled.
“Excuse me?” I asked.
“Oh, sorry I’m Kathleen Williams or Kat for short. I’m your make-up artist for the rest of the shooting.” Kat said and I raised my eyebrows as I sat down.
“Where’s Felicia?” I asked confused.
“Umm…” Kat said biting her lip, “She quit, last minute and I was replaced for her just this morning.” Kat said and I nodded my head.
“Oh, that’s too bad for her but congrats on the job.” I said smiling at her and she smiled even bigger.
“Thanks, well. We should get started.” Kat said and she pulled out the make-up supplies and got started to work.
“So, are you enjoying filming?” She asked trying to make light conversation after the long silence.
“Yeah, it’s fun. It’s like every boys’ dream isn’t it?” He said and she laughed.
“Yeah. I always wanted to be a pirate when I was little, I guess I always had a flair for wanting to be something else. That’s why I got into acting.” Kat said.
“Me too! Wait, you’re an actress too?” I asked shocked.
“Yes, I’m a stunt girl and an actress. I am also Keira’s stunt double if you haven’t noticed.” Kat said and then I realized why she looked familiar.
“Oh, great! What other films have you done?” I asked.
“I was in Moulin Rogue! as a dancer, I was in Star Wars Episode 2 as Natalie Portman’s stunt double and make-up artist, I was in recently Bend it like Beckham with Keira as one of the girls on the soccer team, I was also in X-Men as Rogue’s stunt double and also played the mutant girl who runs through the walls. I am signed up to be in the next movie. I’ve done a lot of theater in NYC more than film, I was the make-up artist for some Broadway shows and I was Mimi in RENT, I was Belle in Beauty and the Beast, I also starred in Les Miserables as Cosette and a few other Broadway shows. I’ve had better luck as lead roles on Broadway and more extra’s/make-up/stunts for films.” Kat said as she kept applying make-up and stuff to my face. She had a sweet smile and her eyes were so mesmerizing. Her dark brown hair shined almost a chestnut color in the bright make-up lights. She was beautiful.
“Wow, that’s an impressive list.” I said once I had regained my voice she had taken my breath away, that hasn’t happened in a long time with a girl, “How old are you?” I asked.
“20.” She replied simply and I felt my eyes bulge out.
“You’ve done all of that and your only 20?!” I asked in disbelief and she laughed, she had a great laugh too.
“Some I did while in High School and I didn’t go to college, my agent got me jobs straight out of high school, so I moved to New York.” She said and I nodded my head and then she grabbed both sides of my face and looked at me sternly, “Don’t move.” She said as she went back to work and I laughed.
“Sorry.” I said and after that our relationship was history.
A few days later I had finally gotten the courage up to ask her out on a date.
“Hey Kat!” I called after her as she walked away dressed in Keira’s red dress from the set.
“Yes?” She asked turning around to face me.
“Would you like to go on a date with me tomorrow night?” I asked and she gave the biggest grin I had ever seen and blushed slightly.
“I would love to.” She said and I smiled huge back.
“Great!” I said.
Our first date was sweet and romantic, we had dinner on Johnny’s yacht (which he let me borrow for the occasion) and we danced under the stars and shared our first kiss on deck. It was a sweet soft kiss and I knew she was the one for me because of the electric shock I got when I kissed her and my whole body went warm with her kiss. Everything just seemed perfect when I was with her. So after our first date we were inseparable from each other and then filming ended. Yet once filming ended we still called each other every day and wrote letters to each other, we both had folders filled with the letters we wrote back to one another. While she was working on X-Men 2 I visited her on set and then when I started filming Troy I paid for her plane ticket for her to come and visit me.
We were deeply in love and everyone could tell, even my mother! I was home one night and before I came over I had talked to Kat on the phone and my mother made the comment that during my whole visit that night home I could not stop smiling.
“Orlando! I came all the way from New York to visit you and you sit there and don’t even listen to me while I am talking!” Elijah said when he came to visit me in London after I had finished filming Troy and was home in London for a while before my next project, it had officially been one year since Kat and I had started dating and I was thinking about what I was going to do for our anniversary.
“Sorry, I’m just thinking about Kathleen, I’m trying to figure what I can do for our one year anniversary today.” I said and Elijah just sighed and rolled his eyes playfully.
“It’s obvious man! You two have been deeply in love for a year, you know what you have to do.” Elijah said.
“Elijah, I…wait, you mean…” I said understanding what he meant and Elijah just smirked and nodded his head.
“Yeah man, you two are deeply in love and you know she is the one, just ask her. Get your butt on a plane and go see her now!” Elijah said. I looked at my watch and noticed it was noon here and that would mean 8 am her time. If I got a ring and then got on the next flight to New York, I could make it by 10 or 11 o’clock tonight.
“You’re right! We both talked about marriage at some point and said we would like to get married some day. I sent her flowers and I wrote her a letter for today, I think this is what I should do. You are a genius man!” I said and I hugged and kissed Elijah and ran out of there and to the jewelers. I went inside and told them to keep this whole ring I buy a secret, I didn’t need the press knowing about this or ruining it. I looked at some rings and saw the perfect one, it was a pear shaped diamond ring with two small round diamonds on either side of it and it was on a white gold band. I bought the ring and ran back to my falt packed my bags and got on the next flight to NYC.
The whole flight there I kept planning out how I was going to give it to her and propose to her. I had finally reached New York at around 10 o’clock that night and I got in a cab to her place. I ran in and jumped in an elevator and went up to her apartment. Once I had reached her door, I knocked and waited for her to answer. I heard her coming to the door and she opened it and the shock and surprise on her face made the whole trip worth it.
“Oh my God! Orlando!” She said and she jumped into my open arms and I kissed her deeply on the lips.
“Happy Anniversary love.” I whispered in her ear.
“This is such a surprise. I thought you were staying home for a while before you run off to go film Haven and then Kingdom of Heaven.” Kat said and I pulled her away a little and smiled at her.
“Where you are is home.” I said and she gave a small smile.
“You know what I mean.” She said pushing me slightly and I gave a fake frown.
“Oh, so you don’t want to see me. I get it, well, I will go now.” I said and started to walk away and she laughed.
“No! Stay!” She called grabbing my hand and I turned around laughing.
“Well, if you insist.” I said and I kissed her deeply on the lips again. She smirked and picked up my bag and led me into her apartment. I then broke out of her embrace and put my bag in her extra room, I was still going to be a gentleman to her even if I was going to propose.
“So, have you had dinner yet? Because if you haven’t I will make you something.” Kat said from the kitchen.
“I ate on the plane. Come sit next to me and let’s watch Moulin Rouge.” I said and she giggled and ran over to the couch and jumped down next to me. I wrapped my arms around her shoulders and pulled her against my body as we watched the movie. We both sang along with the songs and when “Come what May” came on we both held hands and sang the song together. And at the end of the movie right after Satine and Christian kissed, I paused the movie.
“Hey!” She cried.
“You hate the ending anyway, because she dies.” I said and she pouted.
“You’re right.” She said
“Plus, I need to talk to you about something.” I said and I took a deep breath.
“Alright, is everything ok?” Kat asked touching my face and I smiled.
“Everything is fine. Kathleen there is something important I need to tell you.” I said and she lokoed at me with concerned eyes.
“Ok.” She said softly.
“Kathleen Williams, I love you more than anything and I’ve loved you since the first time I met you in the make-up trailer a year ago. You have the most beautiful eyes that are mesmerizing and make me feel like you can see through my soul, your smile makes me weak in the knees and makes me feel butterflies in my stomach. You have a wonderful kind personality and I can’t see myself with anyone else for the rest of my life. I want to grow old with you, have children with you, I want to…have you as my wife.” I said and I could tell she was figuring out what I was getting to and on the last sentence she started to have tears in her eyes and I pulled the box out of my pocket and got down on one knee in front of her and opened the box to reveal the ring and smiled at her as she gasped and started silently crying.
“Will you Kathleen Williams, marry me?” I asked and she started to laugh and cry at the same time.
“Yes…Yes!” She said softly then almost yelling it with the biggest grin on her face and I smiled big and slipped the ring onto her left hand finger and lifted her up off the couch and gave her the most romantic, sensual, passionate kiss I had ever given her. Our lips moved together as if in a dance and her lips were so soft against mine and I pulled her closer against my body feeling the heat and sensual tension flow between our bodies.
“I love you so much.” She said breathlessly once I pulled away and I kissed her again and then moved down to kiss her neck, “I love you, I love you…” She said softly with her breath hot in my ear as I kissed her neck.
“I love you.” I murmured into her neck. We then spent that night together cuddling close to each other in her bed in romantic bliss.
We then got married in June in 2004 when he was free from movie promoting and from filming. We had a small wedding in an old church in England.
I watched her walk down the aisle in a beautiful floor length ball gown style white dress staples with intricate beading work done on the bodice. She looked like an angel, my own heaven sent angel. It was always a nickname I called her, “My angel”. And she now lived up to that nickname, I cried a little as she came down the aisle. When we said our vows to each other, it was wonderful and felt like this was the most perfect moment in the world. The greatest words I ever heard was what the minister said at the end of the ceremony.
“I know pronounce you man and wife you may kiss your bride.” He said and we smiled at each other and kissed her deeply and passionately on the lips, “I give you Mr. and Mrs. Orlando Bloom.” He said and I held her closer to me smiling into the kiss, she was finally my wife and my love for all eternity.
That night was pure romance between the two of us, her first time ever with any man and she gave herself fully to me and I to her. It was the most wonderful night of our lives, it was passionate, it was sensual, it was romantic, and it was above all else amazing in itself. The moment I kissed her and laid her down on our bed in our new house on our wedding night I felt her body tell me she was ready. When I was about to enter her, I held her face in my hands and kept my eyes locked on hers, so I knew what her eyes told me when I took her most precious gift and when I did they spoke love and a fiery passion I had never seen before. She then pulled my face down to make our lips meet and she kissed me hard and full of passion. That night was the greatest night of our lives.
After that we spent our honeymoon in the Caribbean as little break and then we were off together to Kentucky later that summer to start filming on Elizabethtown, she had been hired as my make-up artist and as one of my character’s relatives, an extra. We worked together and lived the time happily in a place she knew well. She was raised in South Carolina and we some weekends when I wasn’t busy would go and visit her family. Life seemed perfect and then in January she told me news I would never forget.
“Orlando, we need to talk.” She said coming into our room in our hotel suite. We were in LA getting ready to start filming Pirates 2 and 3.
“What is it Kat? Are you alright?” I asked as I sat down next to her.
“Orlando, you know how I’ve been sick the past couple of days.” She said holding my hands.
“Yes, did you go and see the doctor today about that?” I asked.
“Yes, I did and Orlando, I’m not sick. I’m pregnant.” She said with a small smiled and I felt my jaw drop and then I jumped up and shouted and then picked her up and kissed her while spinning her around.
“YES! I’m going to be a dad!” I yelled and she laughed and I kissed her again, “I love you, I love you.” I said between kisses.
“I’m so glad you are so happy about this.” She said and I laughed, why wouldn’t I be.
Then 9 months later she gave birth to our baby girl Elizabeth Bloom on September 8th, 2005. She is the most beautiful baby with Kathleen’s eyes, my hair, Kathleen’s nose, and my lips. She was the perfect mix of us both.
“Isn’t she the most beautiful baby girl you have ever seen?” Kat said as she held Elizabeth in her arms as she lay in the hospital bed some hours after giving birth to her.
“She is, she really is.” I said as I lay next to her on the small bed and I kissed Kat’s forehead, “You did wonderfully love. I’m proud of you.” I whispered to her and she leaned her head into me as she sighed.
“I’m so tired.” She said and I moved slightly and called for the nurse to come and take Elizabeth back to the nursery so Kat could get some sleep. But she became gradually even more tired as the days after that went by and soon the doctors had to take some blood tests worried about why she was so tired. Then 2 weeks later, a couple of days after we returned home, we got a call from the doctor. This memory would be the one that would haunt me forever.
“Hello? Yes, this is her.” Kat said from the other room on the phone while I fed Elizabeth her milk in the kitchen and I listened quietly to the conversation, “What? No, that’s impossible. No…NO!” Kat screamed and I placed Elizabeth in her play pen for and ran into the other room to see Kat collapsed to the floor crying and holding the phone in her other hand. She was sobbing harder than I have ever heard her cry before. I immediately fell to the floor next to her and pulled her into my arms to comfort her.
“Kathleen, what’s wrong?” I asked and she sobbed into my chest.
“I-I h-have c-c-cancer!” She cried so hard and I felt my whole body grow pale and my eyes burn with tears.
“No.” I said softly as I kept petting her hair as I held her close as she sobbed.
“Yes, the doctor thinks we might’ve caught it early enough but they’re not sure. They want me to come in for chemo and then we will see.” Kat sobbed and I pulled her away and held her face in my hands.
“You will fight this and beat it. I know you can, you are strong. You can do this. You have to fight it Kathleen you must.” I said crying and she nodded her head crying.
“I know. Will you help me?” She asked.
“Of course, we will get through this together.” I said as I kissed her softly on the lips and pulled her back into my arms, where I wanted her to stay forever and always.
She went to Chemo and kept going back for months and months the doctors kept telling us she was getting better but she started to lose her hair, she got less job offerings and life for her was going down hill except for me and Elizabeth in her life, she said that was all she wanted was us in her life and everything would be perfect.
Then December rolled around and she had to go into the Hospital and stay there she was slowly getting worse. Her hair had grown back some in a short Natalie Portman pixie cut and she still looked more beautiful than anything. Then on New Years Eve she woke me up in the middle of the night by her bed. I stayed in that Hospital with her the whole time she was there while my parents watched Elizabeth. I sat up and held her hand.
“What is it love?” I asked softly.
“Orlando…” She said and then tears started to fall and she took another deep breath, “Darling, I’m dying and I know it.” She said and I squeezed her hand tighter and felt the tears build up in the back of my eyes and my throat tighten.
“No……no the doctors said you are getting better. That this was just a cold or something.” I said feeling my voice crack a little at holding back tears and she started to cry even harder, silently but harder, her body was shaking.
“No! Orlando, I’m dying and I want you to know that I love you so much. I want you to take care of Elizabeth and let her know about me and remember me. Be good to her and take good care of our baby girl. I love you so much.” She said putting her hand to my face and I held it there and her thumb caresses my cheek, “I love you more than anything, you have always been the light in my life and you made my life brighter and better since that day we met in the trailer.” She said and I gave a small smiled remembering the day.
“You’ve been the same thing for me, my rock, my love, my life, and most of all, my wife and one true love.” I said feeling the tears falling and she smiled, “I love you Kat.” I said and she smiled even bigger.
“Thank you.” She said and I leaned down and kissed her deeply on the lips. Five days later and it was around 11 o’clock at night and she smiled at me, looking different, she somehow had this glow to her and it confused me and made me happy at the same time, she was maybe getting better.
“Orlando, will you come lay in bed with me and sleep with me tonight?” She asked patting the side of the bed where she had made room.
“Sure love.” I said and I crawled in the bed next to her and pulled her into my arms and held her close and I kissed the top of her forehead, “Are you feeling better?” I asked her.
“Yes, now just let me sleep. I’m very tired.” She said and I let her start to fall asleep and then she looked up at me.
“Orlando, will you kiss me?” She asked with a slight smile and I kissed her deeply and softly on the lips, “Thank you, I love you.” She said and then she laid her head down on my chest and fell asleep.
The next morning, the morning of January 7th was a morning that would be ingrained on my memory forever. I woke up with her still in my arms and I sat up a little and I looked down at her and smiled, she looked so peaceful. Then I noticed it, she was pale and wasn’t breathing, I started to hyperventilate and I grabbed her wrist and checked for a pulse.
Nothing
Then I grabbed her face and looked at her and she had a small smile on her face and I began to cry. She had died, she had died that night in my arms. I sobbed so hard as I stroked her hair and kissed her cold lips and face.
“NOOOOOOO!!!!” I cried out and then a doctor came running in and he realized someone had shut off the machines so they couldn’t tell when she had died, but the strange thing was no one had been in there since the night before except me. They automatically questioned me and I yelled at them, would I purposefully turn off the machines so my wife wouldn’t have had a chance to get caught to live?
They believed my story and let it pass and just called it an act of God. I sat there for 3 hours holding her in my arms crying hysterically and screaming at the ceiling “WHY GOD WHY?! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO TAKE HER?!!” Finally one of the nurses came in and asked me to leave, they had to take Kathleen’s body and I was also disturbing other patients and families. I agreed to leave. I went home and shunned my family and my daughter and went into our room and cried for 3 days straight not leaving unless to eat or use the bathroom. The pain hurt so much, I felt like someone had ripped my heart out of my chest and hammered it to pieces on the ground. I had seriously considered killing myself to be with her but luckily my mother stopped me and she made me go and take care of Elizabeth.
A week later and after Kathleen’s funeral, I went into Elizabeth’s room when she was crying and picked her up and held her. It was painful to even look at my own baby daughter, who had Kathleen’s eyes. But that’s when I realized I can’t kill myself or keep acting this way, I promised Kat I would take care of our daughter and she is the world to me. I then began to tell Elizabeth the story of me and her mother and that soothed her crying. It was wonderful to let it all out to her and she even seemed interested in the story, even though I knew she couldn’t really understand what I was saying.
It was in that moment, I remembered the time when I proposed to Kat and when we were watching Moulin Rouge! and we both talked about how we hated the ending with Satine dying and I now knew the pain that Christian felt in that movie, I know fond the beauty and the truth and the love of that beautiful but sad ending in that movie. It was my ending in the love I had with Kathleen.
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So here I am a year later crying in front of her tombstone in the snow remembering all of these memories and praying and wishing so hard she hadn’t died and that we could be together at home right now cuddled up by the Christmas tree planning out the ways we were going to sneak the presents under the tree from Santa without Liz noticing. Who I know for a fact would be sitting up at the top of the steps waiting to see Santa come down the chimney and not in bed sleeping.
I laughed at that but then started to cry again, knowing none of that about us cuddled by the tree is going to come true. God, I miss her so.
“Oh would you stop crying.” A female voice said and I stiffened knowing that voice, it couldn’t be true. I stood up and turned around to see Kathleen walking towards me in a beautiful white gown, like Galadriel’s white gown with her shoulder length hair curled just like it was the day I met her. I gasped not believing my eyes.
“Kathleen?” I asked quietly and she laughed her beautiful laugh.
“Yes, it’s me Orlando.” She said walking closer until she was inches apart from me. I reached out to touch her trying to see if she was real or just a ghost and then pulled back afraid to and she smiled, “You can touch me Orlando. I want you to.” She said softly and I reached out and touched her cheek and she then reached out and touched mine and I leaned my head into her warm hand sighing and giving a small moan.
“Kat…..” I said softly.
“I know I want you too.” She said softly and I laughed and then I reached out and kissed her softly on the lips but then deepened the kiss when I realized how warm her lips were, like they were when she was still alive. She pulled away slightly laughing.
“You kiss me as if I’ve been gone for years.” She said wrapping her arms around my neck and I wrapped my arms around her waist holding her close, cherishing this moment with her while it lasted.
“It’s felt like years.” I said softly in her ear as I started to kiss her neck, wanting her desperately and I knew she could feel it and I knew she wanted me too. The way she clung to me around my neck was like she did on our wedding night before we slept together.
“It did for me too. I’ve missed you and Elizabeth so.” She whispered and I sighed feeling tears burn in my eyes again.
“She misses you too. She surprisingly says she can remember you a little. She’s turned out so beautiful Kat, she looks just like you, except with my curly hair and lips.” I said and she laughed.
“I know, I’ve been watching. You are so good with her.” She said pulling away some so she could look at me and I started to cry.
“I wish you were here helping me raise her though.” I said and she laid her head on my shoulder.
“I know I do too.” She sighed and then she pulled away some, “I should go, I need to get back.” She said walking away some and I grabbed her hand, no not so soon.
“No, please stay. Please.” I said begging and she smiled at me.
“I would love to, but I can’t.” She said.
“Why couldn’t he have given you a second chance?” I asked crying harder and she walked over to me and hugged me.
“Do me a favor and wake up.” She whispered in my ear and I pulled away confused.
“What?” I asked.
“Wake up Orlando.” She said and then suddenly I was back in the hospital room lying in bed with her and I rolled over to see her shaking me awake and her bright smile on her face with still her short pixie hair cut. I was confused what just happened?
“Orlando, are you alright? You look so pale.” She said and I looked at her confused.
“What day is it?” I asked softly.
“It’s January 7th.” She said and I felt my eyes grow big.
“What year?” I asked in no more than a whisper.
“2006, why? Orlando, what’s wrong your scaring me.” She said and I suddenly laughed and grabbed her kissed her the most passionate deep kiss I have ever given her since our wedding. She stiffened shocked by this and then wrapped her arms around my neck deepening the kiss. Her death was just a dream, everything about me going to the cemetery was just a dream! She’s not dead!
Once we both pulled away breathless, I leaned my forehead against her smiling so big.
“I love you so much.” I said and she smiled.
“I love you too. Why were you acting so strange before?” She asked and I laughed.
“Nothing just a nightmare.” I said and she rolled her eyes.
“Nightmares never come true, dreams pass in time.” She said and I laughed.
“You really need to stop watching Lord of the Rings.” I said and she giggled.
“I can’t help it.” She said and we laid in her hospital bed in bliss.
A few months passed and she had fought Cancer and beat it. The doctors said she was cancer free and we spent the next Christmas together lying by our tree just like I had hoped in my dream and she and I hope to be together for many years to come.
She is my rock, my life, and my love and always will be until the end of time and forever on.