Disclaimer: This is my own creation, you can say that it was sligthly based on Orlando, but in reality it comes as my own way to explain certain things that I think that we all had to come through. So this is my own mind and words. It is copyrighted by me and it can't be used without my`permission, pretty please ^_^


And you know how attention lover I am, so if you came around this little thread, show me your thoughts, it doesn't matter if they're good or they're bad, it's always good to have some words about this =)


This is PG by the way


Teachings


I’ve learnt a few things in the last years.


I’ve learnt that your chocolate eyes glow when you’re watching a good game of football. I’ve learnt that your voice is soathing and sweet when you’re feeling romantic but it’s strong and fiercy when the anger feel your mind. I’ve learnt how your skin looks in the shower and how your muscles look in the sun. I’ve learnt how your body stretch as you exercise and how your eyes open when you wake up next to me. I’ve learnt that you roll over the other side of the bed as we sleep and that you can’t sleep when I’m too hyper to sleep peacefully.


I’ve learnt to know your movements, and to know your body as if it was mine.


With the time I’ve learnt that you need protection and that you’re as helpless for love as any other real human being. I’ve learnt that you laugh with silly jokes and that you enjoy really deep conversations. I’ve learnt that you are jealous and that you’re insecure even down under your shell of self protection. I’ve learnt to know your laugh and I’ve learnt to know your cries. I’ve learnt so many things of your personality that it hurts when i realize that even if I try so hard, there are so many things hidden under your shell.


I’ve learnt that you enjoy exercise and an active life. I’ve learnt that you love challenges and that you enjoy challenging yourself and myself. I’ve learnt that every rainy day you linger for a quiet afternoon in front of the fire with a board game and munchies. I’ve learnt that you have your dreams of a peaceful life in the county with dogs and children. I’ve learnt that you need me more than anything to bring that dream of yours come true, and I’ve learnt that I don’t need you as much as you do need me.


I’ve learnt so many things in the last years, and as much as I try to deny it, I’ve learnt that we’re not meant to be together. I’ve learnt that when you talk about compromise I feel like running away. I’ve learnt that I love you so much but that everytime I try to be with you there’s something stopping us. I’ve learnt that you are a wonderful man but not the wonderful man for me. I’ve learnt that I am the only one that can break your heart, and that with a word I can help it to mend. But I’ve also learnt that with each time that I broke you down, it’s never the same. I’ve learnt that there’s always something lingering between us, baggage that don’t help our already complicated relationship.


I’ve learnt that being with you is impossible, therefore I realized that I need to be away from you. I’ve learnt that your kisses wake me up in the lonely nights without you and that your memories make me come back to your arms. I’ve learnt that each time that I come back, the same pain and fear surfaces from the deep of my inner body, and I’ve learnt that when my body shakes with fear and my soul itches with anxiety it’s because I realize that I can’t be with you.


I’ve learnt that you want a wife and kids, and have a happy family near the sea. I’ve learnt that you need it more than anyone, and that you need someone to follow you around and someone that would make sacrifices for you. I’ve learnt it, and as I feared it deep inside of my thoughts, I’ve realized that I am not her. I’ve realized that we keep growing away from each other, and that every time that we’re separate we grow apart a few miles more. I’ve learnt that I need to leave you behind, that I need to learn to go away, put your memories behind, close the boxes of your love inside of my head and run away.


Because I’ve learnt, in the end, that after all these years I’ve found out that I don’t really know myself, and for that reason, I’ve learnt that i know nothing about you.

Ah, love it, baby! A very clever little shortie with a good play of words. I really enjoyed it...because it is true when you think of someone you've been close to for so long that you know them nearly as well as you know yourself. But, in the end, even if it is true it doesn't mean you should stay together. And, after all, she shouldn't have to sacrifice or compromise herself or her own dreams to make him happy.

Great one!