Confessions

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I do not own any celebrities mentioned in this story. Any other characters have sprung from the depths of my imagination. Please do not steal or plagiarise.
Rating
G-rated

Enjoy, you guys! Love, Moon :hug:

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“Come on, Billy!” I call out, walking ahead. He just rolls his eyes and smiles, making me love him all the more. He’s my semi-big brother, always around to protect me. But the news I have to tell him weighs heavy on me, and though I have tried to act as carefree as always, I know he suspects that I have something to tell him.

I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?

I called him two days ago, when he’d just arrived back in Glasgow. He’d brought Dominic Monaghan, his best friend, with him because I’ve been talking about him so much. He thinks I have a crush on him, but I’m about to prove him wrong.
“So what did you want to talk to me about?” I swallow, not ready to tell him my big secret just yet.
“Wait until we’re in the restaurant, silly,” I say smiling. I remember when I was in school, and he was still in acting school, with enough time to spare for me. He always wanted to protect me from everything and everyone, never allowing me to see anyone because he was too scared they’d treat me wrong. My semi-big brother. Slash Dad, I may add. Both of our parents died when we were young, so I guess that’s part of the reason why we get along so well…

I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else so we can be free
Nobody else so we can be free

When we enter the restaurant Billy talks to the maitre d’ in a hushed tone, and we are soon seated in a rather secluded place. I know why, it wouldn’t be the first time Billy got recognised in a restaurant and our time together got interrupted by fans. I know Billy loves his fans, but I rather despise them when they decide to interrupt our already so rare times together.
“Now tell me, lass, what did you want to tell me? It must be something important if you’re so nervous,” Billy says when I start fidgeting. That man knows me far too well, but then again he’s known me for about twenty-four years now. That’s my entire life, for those who don’t know my age.
“Well…”
“Are you finally in love? Does he treat you right?” Billy interrupts. I can tell he’s nervous too.
“Billy…”
“Or do you like Dom? He didn’t try anything, did he? I mean he’s only twenty-six, he still has one night stands… You didn’t have a one night stand, did you? Or are you pregnant?”
“Billy!” I call, silencing him. “Please, just let me talk… Yes, I’m in love. And yes, I’m treated wonderfully. I’m sure Kaylee’s big brother has asked her the exact same question…”

And I’m all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed

“You’re… you’re a lesbian?” Billy asks carefully. I bite my lip, waiting for the big scene he’s undoubtedly going to kick. But the silence, the look in his eyes… It’s worse than anything he could say. I knew he’s a Catholic, I knew he wouldn’t accept it… He only accepts it when it’s on Hustler TV.

They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame

“Billy?” I ask carefully. “Please don’t hate me, I can’t help it, I…”
“Adrienne,” he interrupts before I can go on. “All I want is for you to be happy.” Tears form in my eyes when I realise the truth. He doesn’t hate me…
“You don’t hate me?” I ask carefully. He takes my hands in his, and looks straight into my eyes.
“How could I be angry while you are so happy?” he asks softly. “Yes, I disapproved homosexuality once. But when I met a lesbian on set of LotR, I came to realise that they aren’t vile creatures from hell, but ordinary people. Prejudices are easy, but getting over them takes courage. When I realised that, I learned a lot about myself and the world. I’ll always love you and be there for you, whether you’re with a man or a woman.” A tear of happiness slips down my cheek. And when Billy starts asking me questions about Kaylee I know we’re cool…


Song credit: t.A.T.u – All The Things She Said
© Ithil'Quessir 2006

Nice shortie and you sure got me by surprise,
which is something I like very much in shorties.

Of course I expected her to say that she was in love with him,
*grins*
but that turned out to be quite differently.
Yep I like it very much!