Say Goodbye

Disclaimer:
I have to put a warning: I've never have written something like this before, so this is my very first time. This has sexual actions so babies shouldn't read it. I want you having clean minds until you're 18 and you'll be able to get kinky :P
Anyway, I don't own Viggo, and Dixie is completely out of my mind, it's partially based on a good friend of mine, but just physically because her personality or at least the most remarkable parts are created from me. But as in the story, Dixie in the real life is Aries, passionate and persuasive, so that part is real.
You'll see some connection her, and I agree with you, in the future, you might see the other side of the story and the parts that are connected to it.
The song comes from the great Dave Mathews and is called the same way that the story: Say goodbye

And as always, please, please, please, I'm not as good as I should so I really hope anyone would steal part of my work. I love it so much that it hurts me to see it in other hands without me knowing it.

Thanks so much and I'll stop babbling right now.. Remember I'm a replies wh*re and I'd love to see some thoughts about this little thing :D


So here we are tonight,
you and me together
The storm outside, the fire is bright
And in your eyes I see
what's on my mind
You've got me wild
turned around inside

I’ve desired him since I saw him. I read his poems and he completed me. I’m quite sure we’ve been desiring each other long before we were born. His eyes, full of gray rays make me shiver in desperation, I need to feel him, to complete the empty space inside of me, until his essense explodes and fill my thirst of him.

So when I saw him in this room, alone with me, alone with him, the desire started creeping from the skin, and I can feel in the air that he feels this too. The storm is outside, fiery winds blowing off leaves and water and our decency. I saw it blowing away with the wind. I know this is not right, I’ve know it from the moment I saw him with her. But I don’t care, I follow my heart as it explodes with his presence.

“We can’t do this Dixie”

Even the sound of my name is sexy to my ears if it comes from his lips. I walked over him, slowly, my feet following each other, like the movement of a cat I approached him. He stays in the same place, not moving, not running away but not moving forward either. He waits for me I know he does, because the feeling we share is in the air, oh baby I know it’s in the oxigen we are breathing.

“I won’t say a thing, I know you feel this too. I feel it in your speedy heart, in the roughness of your voice, in the hardness of your pants. I won’t say a thing, let’s just spend this night.”

He kisses me back as I kiss him. Slowly and painful at first but the passion overwhelmed us and pushed us to the limit. The white wall supported our desire as I was pushed into it by strong arms. We weren’t ourselves, I was living this dream as if I was just a viewer, I saw the sweat over his forehead, the veins running through his arms, marking the path of the blood that would help him explode.

“I’ve wanted this moment for so long.”

I whispered in his ears, he moaned in the instant my breath touched his warm skin. He hold me high from my back, pushing me harder against the wall, the pain touched my back as I hit the bricks but it was hidden by the fact that I was too consumed by the fact of his body against mine. The hardness between his legs aging to become one with the wetness of my body.

Holding his breath he walked through the room with me in his arms, looking for a soft place where he could lie me and make me his. He found a soft sofa in the corner of the room, with the stormy weather outside and the fiery fire in the background. Passion blinds our emotions and our reason, the passion blinded him and I used it for my own recreation.

Viggo almost ripped out my red dress that was waiting to be taken off, the material hurt my skin that burns with his touch. I was left half naked with my red lingerie and his curious eyes looking at me. I know he is attracted to my reddish bangs, and my pale skin against my green eyes. I am what he is looking for, what he is lacking to touch, something that he doesn’t get everyday. He doesn’t get what he has in front of him in this moment. And I know that because of the strenght in which he brings me to him and kisses me, touching me, exploring my breasts and my silky skin; all prepared for him.

And we'll stay here
Tomorrow go back to being friends
Go back to being friends
But tonight let's be lovers,
We kiss and sweat
We'll turn this better thing
to the best
Of all we can offer, Just a rogue kiss
Tangled tongues and lips,
See me this way
I'm turning and turning for you

In a explosion of a magntuded that it was never seen before he enters me, pushing our lives to the limits we share something that it was never shared, we loved each other the way the love had never been loved, we kissed each other like our lived would end it that moment. And maybe it was the end of our lives, the lives that we used to know. Now we’re changed, we’ll look each other holding our love secret passion. And it’ll never be the same. I know I’ll never be the same, something is changed inside me, this flame will never be off. I know. I feel it.

The liquid of his life is inside me. I’ll have him for this day and for long time now. We share the bed now, his almost breathless body next to mine, his brownish hair damped with his own sweat, the one created after our love making dancing. I kissed his forehead hoping to remember this moment for the rest of my life. Hoping that maybe, maybe we’ll stay this way forever, wishing that in his drunken mind isn’t her, just me, my body, my soul, my eyes. I want to be inside his mind, as he was inside my body moments ago.

“Tomorrow we’ll go back to be friends”

I assured him as the guilt cloud his eyes. He looks at me and sighs. He doesn’t have any other thing to do but run away, and I know it, but he spent his time with me. I know it’s something. He must feel something for me, I know it, I need to know it.

“This is a mistake. You know it, don’t you?”

Do I know it? Should I know it? I don’t want to believe his heart belongs to the blonde. It’s not fair the game the destiny is playing. We should switch men, my should be with her, playful, childish boy. She doesn’t deserve the wiseful Viggo. I deserve him. I’m more woman that blondie. And I know I showed that to him this night.

“Stay with me, tonight let’s be lovers, please say you will. Let’s have this evening for us. Let it be filled with the passion we deserve, let’s do this thing tonight, until the sun comes up, it’s all ours. We’re alone. Tomorrow, we’ll go back to be friends”

“How could you let me do this?”

He said with broken voice. I smiled. He stands up the bed, leaving his mark in the sheets, all messy after our lovemaking. He didn’t do it without wishing to do it, I know it because the soreness on my body make me realize that this love making wasn’t just acting.

“I didn’t put a gun in your head to do it. I know you wanted me as much as I do, and all you want is to deny it.”

“You don’t understand it. She is pregnant, I can’t do this to her. Do you understand it?”

I froze, she is pregnant? When that happened? I watched him put his jeans on, and the white shirt he had on is back to his body. I watched how he took his shoes with his hands and walked away with bare foot. I watched him leaving me and me without a cold heart to tell him to stay. I watched him walking away and my heart broke. He looked back to me before leaving me in the room all alone, with the sensual smell still on the air, he stopped to saying me the same words I’ve been listening in my mind all night long.

“Tonight we were lovers, tomorrow we’l l go back to be friends, I’ll go back to her and you’ll go back to him; that’s how it’s supposed to be. Tonight, we’ll say goodbye, to this night, to what happened to us. Tonight we’ll say goodbye”

And he closed the door as my tears filled my green eyes, the room still smelling to his perfum, I have to wash it away, as my memories, as everything in me. I have to see it washing away from me. The memory of her pregnant broke it down. I can’t go this far with her, I can’t do this harm to her, I’ll say goodbye to him too.

And tomorrow
back to being friends
Lovers...love...lovers
Just for tonight, one night...love you
And tomorrow say goodbye

oh, I loved it! very angsty and sweet. great job!

Ohhh! Very hot and also very sad. Heartbreaking for the two of them but also sad for their oblivious partners. Seems like everyone is losing in this situation.

Extremely powerful shortie! I really enjoyed reading it, babe!

To quote Am, this is some powerful stuff, Andie! I mean, wow.

I sensed that there wasn't much good to come out of something with lovers today, friends tomorrow (it shall NEVER work! *shakes head* -_-), but the fact that he lost his head (in both senses :tsk: It doesn't take 18 years to get kinky, dear ;)) while he knew that there's a bun in the oven. :no: Desire is the downfall of mankind. Or at least, one of the many many downfalls.

Overall, this was a beautiful piece, Andie. So heartwrenching at the end, despite the foreshadowing. :hug:

:heartbeat:
Samma

P.S. I was cleaning and found this pink faery clock of mine, that I never really used. Lo quieres?

-_- I know, I've just been in that situation once, and It wasn't right. damn you frodo clone..!! (he was a frodo alike :lol: )

I know, but since I have a kinky mind, if you don't believe me there's always mena, amber or jaime to support it, I just want to preserve the innocence on the world. Save the world one girl at the time :lmao: :pirate:

But it's the one that we all want...!!

Would you? I have my collection and I love to see it, hopefully, one day they'll come alive and I'll be very happy :D


Thanks for you replies girls, I was so nervous about this one, I'm glad you liked it and I was able to express what I meant to... !! Thanks so much..!!

Andie :cloud#9:

Oh, Frodo clones are never good for the heart. :heartbeat: Duuuude, there's this guy named Allen at my school, who I swear to GOD Almighty that he looks exactly like our dear, youngest hobbit. The first time I saw him, I did that thing where you tilt your head to side and are all wtf?? But, really sad. He's very very intelligent, but is sort of "special" especially socially. Anyway, he bought a prom ticket before he asked a girl and got rejected (who DOES that???), and so he had to go ($80 doesn't go wasted that easily), but spent the whole night being miserable, sitting in a corner table by himself in the kareoke room. :cry: We found him with like 15 minutes left, and he was just leaving... I felt soooo badly.

*cough* But the world is so much more FUN with kinky minds. Who wants to be completely prudish anyway? :noangel:

I blame the media... :unsure: Hey, its a logical place to put blame, unless you feel like blaming mankind... human instinct. That may be better...

Sure thing! As soon as I get a job, and money to send it out, I'll ask for your address!

My frodo's clone was so alike him, big eyes, great hair... Musician, had his own band but he was awful in it. He even had the teeth!! :unsure: Scary I know... It was love at first sight, I'd see him everywhere on campus and that's so difficult..!! But he was a jerk, but Iwas naive and fell for him since we had so much in common, he liked POTC!! Eternal sunshine, and Garden State!! He was kind of geeky and liked all Johnny Depp's movies, that made me wonder if he was gay but he wasn't, I can prove that..!!

HE played so harshly with me, and dumped me in the end because he didn't want a girlfriend and he couldn't hurt me -_-

But right now, more than a year after it and with an amazing bf next to me, if I talk to him again, I find several new joint interests and it hurts :cry2:

That's how I found that Frodo's clones aren't good clones...

The real one is the best ;-)

Okay, now, honey, do you want to kill me? Why? :cry:

I almost missed all the clever hints you put in here and there... the blonde and the boy... mmm... I think I should never peel my eyes off SGH from now on!
Moving on...

I can handle writing sensual tension, but not love scenes, i suck at them, and that is why I am always in pure awe of those who are brave enough to go through them, and I gotta say you did an outstanding job! My little Snowwhite, you're all grown up now!

On the emotional level, i cried. Yes, I cried... it's because, as I have been telling Am and Dana lately, I miss the times I was so high on my writing, when I used to write ATAL daily and Viggo, like all others, was in my head, and he was mine, sort of... and reading about Dixie longing for him, and her pain when everything crashes about, well, i felt abandoned and lonesome too.

I know its silly, but must blame your powerful writing for that!

It's mature, sexy, and great!

I hate how long the healing process for the heart takes... <_<

I'm glad that he broke it off, at least hoping not to hurt you (though that never really works, does it?), and now you have a good boy. *high five!* Oh, I'd kill to be over my last... -_-

But, of course, clones will never be anything to the real thing! ^_^

Very nice and intense.
Reads like a greek tragedy.
We all want this kind of all consuming passion to take hold of us at least once in our life.
I am just really sad for her... as usual this passion leads to major heartache, just like it did in this story.
But....

HUH!!!! like you weren't there buddy!
this line was killer and her response to it and her reaction to the news she was pregnant brought tears to my eyes.

Love, Moon