Author's Name: Cristina (LacedNBlue) (NOTE: MischieviousGyrl is me at a different site.)

Writen: December 17, 2004

Rating: G....PG?

Genre: um.....not really romantic....more on a sad note

Main Character(s): Taylor, Josh, and Chris

Disclaimer: This is entirely mine so please do not take! The title and song is Josh Groban’s so please don't take that either. I thought of the story as I was listening to the song and it really hit home because I based it on if it would happen to me because what the girl loses I have and I can't see myself without him. It's very short but I hope you all enjoy.

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Wash away the thoughts inside
That keep my mind away from you.
No more love and no more pride
And thoughts are all I have to do.

“Taylor, are you almost ready?” I hear my mother ask.

“Almost!” I yell before returning into my closet.

As I pull out my coat, the top shelf comes falling down. I scream and cover my head.

“Are you alright?” My mother yells.

“FINE; I’m fine!” I reply and look down at the floor.

Joshua McFadden

My breath is stuck in my throat. I try to breathe but it won’t come out. I stare at the box.

“Tay?” I hear my mother’s voice say.

I turn around as tears stream down my face. She runs up to me and grabs my shoulders.

“I can’t breathe.” I mouth.

“Don’t do this now Taylor! Don’t you dare!” She yells; her face panic stricken. “Breathe! BREATHE!”

I bend over and try to calm down. I feel my mom pull me up and hit my chest. The shock opens my lungs. I breathe in; the air burning my body. I collapse on the floor and close my eyes.

“What happened?” I hear her ask.

I point over at the closet where the box is lying on the floor. I watch as she looks over and her expression changes from frightened to sadness. She sits down next to me and cradles my head as I cry.

“We have to go,” I say softly after a few minutes.

She nods and helps me up. I turn off my light and follow my mom out of the house.

Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
Felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Ohhhhh Remember when it rained.
In the darkness I remain.

I sit next to my mother and hold her hand tightly. The sad melodies are playing softly in the background of the soft cries of the people around me. I close my eyes reminding myself to breathe.

“It’s over; let’s go.” She whispers in my ear.

I get up and look down. I look down as people pass by dropping flowers. Thunder claps and rain engulfs everyone. They all scream and run for cover. I don’t move and just stare at the ground.

“Oh come on! A little rain never hurt anyone!” Josh says pulling me out from the shelter of the roof.

I laugh and look up. Closing my eyes I twirl around, letting the cool water wash over my hot body. I feel someone wrap their arms around me and open my eyes.

“What’s this for?” I ask him.

“Just because,” He laughs pulling away from the hug.

I bring the flower in my hand up to my lips and kiss it softly; after a seconds thought I let it drop onto the box before walking away.

Tears of hope run down my skin.
Tears for you that will not dry.
They magnify the one within
And let the outside slowly die.

I walk into my bedroom and sit on the floor in front of the closet where Josh’s box still sits. I open it slowly and close my eyes. I count to five before I open my eyes and gaze at its contents. I take out numerous pictures, ticket stubs, his class ring, and his baby blanket. I wipe away the tears and place his ring on my thumb. Smiling, I remember how his ring never fit any of my fingers except my thumb. I caress his baby blanket. Bringing it up to my face, I smell his cologne. I feel my heart break. I bury my face into the blanket and cry.

After holding on to his blanket for an hour I decide to go back downstairs. As I gaze into the kitchen I see my parents crying softly with my grandparents next to them. I walk over to the front door and step out under the roof. I watch the rain fall as my tears do the same. They don’t seem to want to leave. I sit on the step and let my heart crumble.

“Hey,” I hear.

I turn and look up.

“Hey Chris,” I answer quietly.

“Are you going to be alright?” He asks sitting down next to me.

I nod and turn away. I feel his arms slide around me and turn around and take the offering hug.

Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
I felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
In the water I remain
Running down
Running down
Running down
Running down
Running down
Running down
Running down

“God Taylor I’m so sorry!” He cries softly into my ear.

“It’s like a part of me is just….just gone. I don’t know what to do.” I say looking at him.

He puts his head down in thought. I stand up and look out at the rain mirroring my feelings. I walk out into the rain and look up. Closing my eyes I fall onto my knees.

“WHY!” I scream. “WHY GOD?! WHY TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME?!”

The realization of it all hits me in one big swoop. I will never see him again. All the sadness, pain, and anger rushes out of my body as I stay there looking at the sky.

“HE WAS TOO YOUNG GOD! I WANT HIM BACK! PLEASE GIVE ME MY BROTHER BACK! GIVE ME MY OTHER HALF BACK!”

“Shhhh,” I hear Chris say.

“NO! I WANT HIM BACK! I can’t do this alone.” I cry into his already soaking shirt.

“We can be here for each other. I will always be here.”

I look into his eyes. Slowly caressing his face I give him a small smile.

“I know you will and I will always be grateful for it. I just…just can’t –“

“Believe your twin is gone forever?”

I nod. “It feels like half of me is gone. Like, I’ll never be able to breathe the same again or –“

My words and thoughts are cut off as Chris presses his lips against mine. Surprised I pull away.

“Try not to think about it.” He whispers before placing his lips over mine again.

I return his tender kiss before pulling away and hugging him.

“I love you so much and I know that Josh wouldn’t want you to dwell on his death. He will always be a part of you; in here.” He says placing his hand over my heart.

“I know, but not having him near me, around me, it’s just not the same.”

“I know it isn’t, but we’ll be here for each other. Your parents are going to need your support.”

I nod in agreement.

“Christian, Taylor, come inside! You’ll get sick!” I hear my grandmother yell.

I look over and see my parents and grandparents standing by the door. My mother’s hand is by her heart as if trying to hold on to it while my father’s arms are around her. I nod and look at the ground. Kissing it softly I look up and blow a kiss.

“I love you little brother. Don’t forget me.” I cry before returning inside the house.

As I walk by his room to go change a cold chill sets over my body. I turn and open his door softly. I walk inside and look around. I close my eyes and breathe in the scent.

“I will never forget you, big sister.” I hear his voice next to my ear.

I turn around and gasp. Nothing’s there. Swallowing hard I close my eyes again before walking out of the room and closing the door softly behind me. I look at his door. Running my hand over it, I place a kiss on it before putting my forehead against it.

“I love you.” I say one last time before going to change.

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This is so sad!
I remember seeing a documentary on tv about how twisns can physically feel eachothers pain.
I hurts to read how sad she is, her despair is tangible, you can made me feel it.

Love, Moon

Congradulations. You just made me incredibly sad. :cry:

Goooodddd... but I like the bond that she had with him. *sad smile*