Title: I know deep within my heart
Author: 4everElijah
Category: Song-fics
Rating: PG
Song: Backstreet Boys “I Need You Tonight”I turned around to lock the door of the house as I stepped out into the cold wintry evening. It was three days until Christmas and my sometimes live in boyfriend Mike was on the road. ‘Sometimes live in’ meaning when he isn’t touring with his band, Version 1. We had been dating for a year and living together for 3 months, and he still hadn’t told me that he loved me. I was beginning to get frustrated with our relationship and had been debating breaking it off. I made my way down the walk and hurried into my car, turning it on and seeing what was in the cd player as I waited for it to warm up. My old Backstreet Boys cd began playing and the song hit me as if it were coming from Mike himself.
Open up your heart to me
And say what's on your mind, oh yes
I know that we have been through so much pain
But I still need you in my life this timeI slowly backed down the icy driveway and headed towards my favorite coffee shop downtown, planning to meet some of my friends there so we could go shopping for our boyfriends’ last minute small gifts. We always go out together and find cute little things. This year I didn’t even think Mike would make it home for Christmas because all of the interstate roads were terrible. I was really missing him, especially when the chorus of the song came on…
And I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
I really need you tonightI was beginning to wonder if I had lost my mind. Even thinking that this song was symbolic made me a little nuts, right? But I couldn’t deny that this wasn’t some sort of sign sent telepathically from Mike as the next verse came on. It made so much sense…
I figured out what to say to you
But sometimes the words they, they come out so wrong, always they do
And I know in time that you will understand
That what we have is so right this time
And I need you tonight
I need you right now
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or rightI decided against going out with my friends and instead turned around to go back to the house. A tear slid down my cheek as I thought about Mike. I loved him, and even if he hadn’t told me, it was obvious that he loved me. His actions spoke louder than words sometimes, but I was too stubborn to realize what it meant. “I’m so stupid…” I said out loud to the empty car.
All those endless times we tried to make it last forever more
And baby I know
I need you
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
I really need you, ohI pulled back into the drive and noticed a light on in the kitchen. “I thought I turned all the lights off…” I mused to myself as I listened to the last bit of the song before getting out to head inside…
I need you tonight (I need you, oh I need you baby)
I need you right now (It's gotta be this, it's gotta be this)
I know deep within my heart
No, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or it's right
All I know is baby
I really need you tonightI was gently humming the song as I opened the door and stepped into the front hallway, stomping snow from my boots. I shed my shoes and coat as I walked into the kitchen.
“Mike!” I yelled, leaping towards my boyfriend, who was sitting in a chair at the table reading that morning’s paper which I had forgotten to throw away.
He stood up and caught me in his arms. I looked up into his warm brown eyes, “I missed you Mikey.”
“I missed you too baby.” He said and planted a long kiss on my lips. As he pulled away he shot me a grin and said, “Go sit in the other room, I have a present for you.”
I went in the family room and glanced out the window to see that snow was falling gently. I curled up on the couch and stared at the glittering lights of our tree.
“Alli?” I heard Mike say softly from the doorway and I realized that I was crying. He walked to me and kneeled down in front of the couch, “What’s wrong?”
“I don’t know, I was just listening to a song in the car and it got me thinking about stuff…”
“Oh? Well, maybe a present will cheer you up…” he said wiping the tears from my cheeks.
“But Christmas isn’t for another few days…” I mumbled but he reached into his pocket anyway.
“Allison, I love you. I know I haven’t told you that, but I was waiting for the right time. So now, I want to say…I love you with all my heart, I don’t know what I would do without you, you keep me from going insane when the nights are long and hard on the road, the sound of your voice calms my nerves and reassures me that I can do anything in the world and you’ll be behind me 100%. I don’t ever want to lose you, and I want you to marry me.” He said opening a ring box to show me what was inside. I lightly fingered the 3-stone diamond ring and then looked back to Mike.
“Oh, Mikey…I love you too. Yes, yes I’ll marry you.” I said softly and he hugged me tightly to him as he kissed me again.
He broke away and slid the ring onto my finger before tossing the box under the tree and climbing onto the couch behind me.
As Mike and I sat on the couch snuggled together under a blanket, parts of the song from earlier skated through my head and I smiled to myself thinking just how wonderful this Christmas was turning out to be.
I know deep within my heart
It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right…A/N: Don't know where it came from...Just seemed cute to me. I love my Mikey! And he really is in a band called Version 1...you can check them out on
their Myspace. Hope you guys liked the story, please review! I love you bunches! ~Alli~