Disclaimer: I have no connection to Elijah or anyone close to him. This is completely fictional. Just me throwing my drama onto him. :D

Its so true, the saying, you only realize what someone actually means to you when you lose them.
Sometimes you take people for granted, not knowing that you are. Not knowing that you might hurt them, not knowing that you are only pushing them away.
I never thought I'd drive Elijah into leaving me. Never imagined I'd push him so far against the wall, that he'd have to start to push back. I now know why he did what he did. And I now know how good it feels to not blame him anymore.

Elijah was a really good boyfriend to me. He respected me, he treated me like I wanted to be treated. He made me laugh, he made me smile, he touched my heart.He was my best friend. My love. My soulmate. I knew I'd never be without him...but I knew wrong.

Its been four months since we broke up, and I've got to tell you it still hurts like it happened today. He never wanted to hurt me. And I never thought I'd hurt him. I always knew how good he was, you know, you always know. You always know when things are just so right. I didn't want to ruin it. So I didn't tell him. Ever.
I never showed him enough appreciation. I didn't give enough. I guess I was the taker.
When you love someone, sometimes, you get so caught up in making each experience perfect, you forget that you actually have to live them. You can never plan. I made that mistake of taking things so extremely seriously..I didn't realize.

I realize now. How wrong I was to think if I didn't show him how perfect he was, that he'd see it anyway. If I didn't give him enough, he'd stay around, waiting to get it. But thats not how things work. I was stupid and manipulative and it cost me the best thing I've ever had.

I woke up one morning to the phone ringing incessantly. I let it ring for a while thinking Lij would get it but finally got annoyed and answered it.

"Hello?" I said into the phone rudely.
It was my boss. He told me that he could finally get me to meet the people from the office in LA. This is what I'd been waiting for. I was so happy. He said it was probably already mine, but they had to meet with me for an "interview"...for formality sake. I thanked him and hung up. Rushing out into the living room I found Elijah packing his bags. He seemed in a rush.

"Morning!" I said, cheerily. "Whats this? What are you packing for?"
"Its getting too much, Sonia. You know it." He replied softly. He sounded so serious. I was afraid.
"What.." I laughed nervously "What do you mean "its getting too much"?"
"Us, Sonia. We're getting too much. Its just not working out. I have to leave."
I couldn't say anything. I looked at him and he looked at me. He stopped rushing about and came towards me. Taking my hands in his, he said "Lets not let it get worse. I love you and always have. But come on..look at us."
"What...so you're going away? Leaving? After two years? You don't do that after two years, Elijah. You can't. Shouldn't we talk or som.."
"I don't want to talk, babe." He was zipping up the his suitcase. "Its been too much talking."
He kissed me on my forehead and left. That was all. Thats how it ended. I was left there, teary eyed, standing in the middle of what used to be the living room of the house I shared with my boyfriend, in a "I love NY" sweatshirt and my mickey mouse socks. I fell to the floor and cried.

I learnt alot from that and I'll probably never make those mistakes again. So I guess it was a learning experience. And since nothing lasts forever, you may as well learn something from things that last a while. But believe me, you will always regret not letting them know. Everyday I think about the things I thought about him and loved about him and never told him. Maybe it was just meant to be the way it turned out...I believe in whats meant to be will be. But it could have ended on a better note, since it had to end anyway.

Never take advantage of the one you love because nobody is here forever.

*blubbers*

That is such a sad story.
It really made me want to cry.
And it is so true what Sonia says.
You always have to let people know how you feel about them!

Really great darling!


btw could you please put up a rating and disclaimer.
Thanks!

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Aw thanks so much, love. I believe though that I've lost my "talent" for short stories. I don't know why. Maybe its just writers block or something. I happen to think the shortie was quite crap, but just posted it cause I was utterly bored back then. *sniff* darn cold!

Of course!

I really like it too. You gave the meaning really well. I like how you put it across. So true and so sad. :cry: Really great. I don't think you've lost your talent for short. Shorts are hard as you have little or no character development and you have to think about the words you use as you don't have a lot of them. :hug: I think it was fantastic.

With love
Anneka

Anneka, I officially love you. *grins* I'm sorry if that freaks you out! :P

Thanks so much for reading! You're a doll!