I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special.
but I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here,
I don't belong here....

Radiohead- Creep

That song reminds me of me.

My name is Hannah Elizabeth Lynn Erikon, Daughter of Madonna Erikon and daughter of Hugh Botting. I have two brothers, William (Bill) and Harry (yes....just like the princes)

I am 17 years old, and I'm about to enter grade 12. I'm music obsessed, and about as in love as a seventeen year old can be, to quote Christina Alibrandi. I've been going out with a guy called Thom for a year and a half and I love him to bits.

My parents are still together, have been for going on 26 years. The reason I'm an Erikon and not a Botting is that when I was thirteen I decided to be the only person in my family to take on my mother's name, not out of disrespect for my dad, but seeing as the rest of my brothers and sisters were botting's, I thought I'd do it for my mum.

I've had a fair bit of life experience. I know what it's like to lose someone really close to you. My best friend Aiden died when I was about to enter grade ten. That really wrecked me and I tried killing myself twice. After that, I began to get really close to a guy I'd known since grade one, a guy called Tom, who's my best friend now, and he's always there for me. A few months after Aiden died, his father's drinking problem got worse, and he started threatening to kill me and his daughters. Ella and Amie got me through all that, and helped me out while helping themselves. They are the strongest people I've ever met.

I've travelled quite alot, i've been to Italy, Germany, France, Scotland, Wales, Japan, America.....the list goes on, but my home will always be Australia, even if i hate it some times. I love the beaches here more than the beaches anywhere.

I owe everything I've got to Thom and Tom, and Aiden. I'll never forget him.

I guess that's everything I wanted to say.....I was bored and felt like doing this, and I promised Tom and Thom I was going to let my friends on here know how much of what I do is thanks to them. They didn't want me to, but I had to!

here's my other song....slightly less depressing lol....

Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup,
They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my open mind,
Possessing and caressing me.
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.
Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes,
That call me on and on across the universe,
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they
Tumble blindly as they make their way
Across the universe
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.

Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing
Through my open views inviting and inciting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a
Million suns, it calls me on and on
Across the universe
Jai guru de va om
Nothing's gonna change my world,
Nothing's gonna change my world.

The Beatles- Across the Universe

Wow

That is some pretty heavy stuff you have gone true. Must have been incredibly difficult. I really admire it that you pulled true and that you told about it so openly!
:yay:
Well I hope that life is looking up for you a bit again and it's good to know you have friends that will pull you true!

Hugs
Dana