Chapter 9Complete chapterBilly was in his 30’s and it was kind of strange to the world that he was still single. So many stories followed his absent of a woman in his life, from the most classic “homosexuality” stories with his best friends, Dom, or Orlando or Elijah; or the most stranger that kept him laughing for a while, stories that talked about him into a strange religious group that the main thing was to be without a woman (or a man in case of women) for the rest or their lives.
But they liked to put everything into a drama story, it was not that complicated! He just hadn’t found the woman for him. See? No complications this time. he just hate the idea of the stress about getting a girl, a girlfriend, getting engaged, getting married AND have children… well, maybe not all the things, but everyone expected him to have at least a girl right now.
And it wasn’t that he didn’t want women. Oh God, he loved them. He loved the way their hair fell in their backs and the softness of their skin or the way they were strong and weak at the same time; he loved the way they need the men in some way and in the same time they were so independent that the men ended needing them. But he still hadn’t found his woman.
He took the letters of his mail box and started going upstairs to his apartment in a building next to the beach at Sta. Monica. He had to admit that Sta. Monica’s beach was such an amazing place to be. He could be able to surf, to lie down and *relax*, in some way, in California you JUST CAN’T relax at any moment, and it was warm. All his life he lived in Scotland; make himself very proud to be a Scottish, but well, who doesn’t love the sun, warm weather and a beach?
Certainly he did.
He opened the door of his pent and started separating his letters in various groups: fan letters (he still was amazed by the way these girls could search him AND find him better than his mom!), work letters, ads letters, friends letters (most of them were from Orlando, who still thought that the e mail was sent by the devil and that the computers bite). He frowned when he found a letter of his agent telling him that it was time for some medical analyses. He hated them. The only idea of getting away part of his blood for the only reason that a doctor put that blood down a microscope and tell him that he was ok, it was insane.
This kind of weird the world was.
He walked to his white kitchen, very neat maybe because he hardly cooked in there, and took out a beer of the fridge. He took some of the fan letters and sat down the chair he had in the balcony.
He closed his eyes and smiled. It was the first time he could be able to just not do a thing in a day. After LOTR, Master and Commander came and all the publicity tours the both movies needed. It was a difficult work, he had to admit it, but to be in a place of another person, just for a second, to pretend to be in love, to be innocent, to be brave, and then to come back to his life, it was precious, in some way it helped him to love more his own life.
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