Hi!

I'm Kaylee Ann--many just call me Kay--and I'm a sixteen-year-old Canadian girl! I don't know where to start, but I guess I'll start at the beginning...

I grew up in Pentiction, British Columbia, until I was about twelve years old. I had the life there, I guess. I was sporty, outspoken, and got along with everyone. Nothing really too interesting happened, but I was happy there.

When my father got a new job on Vancouver, which, of course, was fabulous! We all packed up and went. Of course I was upset, as anyone would be, but it was for the better. I, however, had to leave my two gerbils Pip and Squeek behind with another family because we couldn't take them with us. :P

I fell in with the wrong crowd, started doing things that would have gotten me killed it weren't for my caring family. I let my brain and smarts just basically ooze out of my own head. I didn't think about anything--I just did. I even stopped the writing that I had been doing since I could hold a pencil in my hand, and the art.

At the time--this time being around Ninth Grade--I went through the "teen phase" and pushed everyone away from me that only wanted to save me. I went through severe depression, and believed that my family was only trying to hold me back and I hated, hated, hated them! I went to parties, and one party in particular woke me up. I was drugged, taken advantage of, humiliated, and so forth... I never spoke up because I became withdrawn from everything and everyone. That seems to be part of the reason I can hardly trust a soul because it was done by people I knew.

Then I saw this movie that literally changed my outlook on life. It may sound silly, but when I was forced to see The Two Towers with my aunt, I thought I was being punished. But, of course, I fell in love with it. The message of never giving up no matter how much the odds are stacked against you really touched me somehow. It seemed to open my eyes.

I slowly rebuilt anything that had been torn away from me when we moved. I grew up, really, and saw that my family had been there the whole time and I nearly broke down again when I realized how I had been treating them. My mother and I grew to be best friends after that, my marks picked up again, and I became this cautious person that knew what my true boundaries were. I went through the largest change in just half a year, became interested in writing once again--because of J.R.R Tolkien--, and became engrossed in novels and the imaginations that people held. I would still go to parties rarely with my new friends, but knew that if I wanted to just sit down with a good novel infront of my fireplace that it was all right.

Later on my mother's family was hit with disease in so many places that we had a year of horror. The most kindest man, my Uncle, was diagnosed with ALS--also known as Lou Gehrig's disease--and died shortly after before I got to fly out to see him. My great aunt was then diagnosed with a brain tumor, and my great uncle with bone cancer. They both passed away about a year later. My mother almost broke down, and it tore me to shreads to see my best friend in such a manner.

It was a tough year, this year not being much better. My only Uncle now is over helping with the war in Kosovo where UN soldiers and so forth are being killed every day, and he's still not home. We are frightened every day that we may get horrible news, but I'll pray.

I came across EWFN where I wrote my very first fanfiction entitled Death by Demand. Wooo, that was a long time ago. Good times... I now love nature, instrumental music mostly, and laughing. Also, just give me a hug and I'll melt into a puddle. I love hugs... :P I'm planning on my college education when I graduate next year, something that would have never crossed my mind previously. I want to be an author sometime in the far future, but that wish seems far-off at the moment.

Well, if that isn't the most depressing dribble I've ever written down, then I don't know what is. That's my background in a nutshell. Actually, not really a nuthsell, more of a balloon, or watermellon--er... :D Hope you decide to reply!

Hugs,
Kay

*Hugs Kay*.

Did I make you puddley? :P.

But in all seriousness...

I want to express my respect for you. I had a great deal for you before, but now it's just personified.

Everyone makes mistakes, some much more terrible than others (which unfortunately you found out the hard way) but it's what people do with those mistakes which define who they are.

Not the mistakes themselves.

Despite everything, you still made it through. You saw everything for what it truly was, and worked as hard as you could to make it right again. That is why I respect you. Your love for your family and your value of life overcame all else inside your mind. That absolutely awes me.

As for the 'being taken advantage of', there is no excuse for that at all. If you haven't already realised it, that was never your fault. Whatever disgusting, humiliating things these people did to you are not a reflection on you. They are the ones who deserve the blame and pity. You are beautiful, with a heart as strong and rare as diamond. Sure, you made mistakes, but that does not warrant what they did to you.

There are so many things that I want to say about you, how incredible you are, how warm your spirit is, how incredible talented your writing is, but I just don't think that I could say them well enough to do you justice.

Your dream is to be an author, yet you believe it to be a far off whim.

Don't.

When it comes to your writing, I've seen what you can do. I've experienced a glimpse of the unfathomable depths of your talent. You were born to write, it's inside of you. You have a gift that matches - sometimes exceeds - the work of all of the authors I have ever borne witness to.

I believe that if you want to be an author, that if that is what you really yearn for, then you can - and will - achieve your dream. Nothing can stand in the way if you have enough passion for it. Dreams are everything in life, I believe with every breath of my being that if you try, you will succeed.

I love you, stay as beautiful as you have always been Kay.

Love Always, Jessity :love:.

*ish all puddley, puddley*

Gosh, Jessity. I honestly don't know what to say! You're words are so sincere and sweet that I just want to physically hug you! I just... whoa.

My heart and mind are above the clouds right now with your encouragement! You have no idea--it truly helps. God, what you said is going to remain so special to me for ever...

I understand that mistakes shape who we become, and maybe that all was just a wake up call for me. It's just hard to get past it--I know many people have been in somewhat the same situation, and I hope they don't dwell on it as often as I do. It's slowly getting better. Things like this take time, I guess!

Thank, thank, thank for the comments about my dream to be an author. I know there are tough critics out there, and it may take a long while to actually be a published, selling author, but I won't give up now. It's so good to hear that you enjoy my work so... :cry: :cry: Happy tears, happy tears.

I'm just getting to know you as well, Jessity, but I already want to huggle you to pieces! You're so... Geez, I don't even know what to say. You've left me speechless, which is a marvelous thing. Just... Thank you.

Eeep. *ish still all puddley, puddley* I'm a sap, just so we're all clear. Lol. And when someone touches my heart like that, I never shut up!

Love,
Kay

:blush:.

I'm glad I made you so happy. I figure, a little (or a lot of) support wouldn't hurt! And that's just what you'll always get from me.

Everything I said was the absolute truth.

Hmm, I just noticed that I'm signed into MSN. I didn't even realise that I was on! Blah.

- Jessity B)

Yeah... I'll do the same for you. So, if ever you need an ear to chat off, don't hesitate to do so to mine.

I have you on my MSN, don't I? o.O; I'm not sure. Lol. I have so many people on mine that I lost track of who is who, and most of them I don't know. >.<