Title: I Feel Dirty...
Description: ::sigh::
Linz - July 7, 2004 05:28 PM (GMT)
Alright everyone, I need some help again.
My girlfriend and I have officially broken up, that was about a month and a half ago maybe a little less, and things have been fine. (Most of you know the drama from my relationship with her.) ANYWAY, my best friend Geoff is dating a boy whos friend has a crush on me. (The friend is a girl) Let me give you some background on her. She is someone who has had a relationship with a woman and identifies as a "True Bisexual", though I think she is DEFINATELY a Lesbian. She won't tell anyone that she likes girls cause she doesn't want her family to find out. They would be fine with it and she knows that, she just wants to make sure she is who she thinks she is...kinda like not telling them and then taking it back. She is someone who just wants to have fun, and that is ALL that she wants right now. (Background on me...I have to really care about you to have sex)
ANYWAY...Everytime I see her and she is drinking she kisses me and stuff. Usually I'm drunk too so I don't mind being kissed. :P The other night we went out in a group and I ended up having to stay at her house cause my ride decided to leave. Well we were both a little tipsy and we basically did everything but have sex. It was kinda sereal. But now I feel really dirty and guilty about it. Everytime I look at my ex she is all angry and stuff cause she knows that something happened cuase I didn't come home that night. AND, it's just not me you know? I would love it to be me...trust me on that one...but it's just not. SO now, I think that this girl Meg wants to "get together" sometime soon and I'm afraid to just let it be the 2 of us. I like making out with her, cause I haven't gotten any in a long time and I really like making out, but I feel dirty afterwards. Any suggestions? ><
Crystie - July 7, 2004 06:15 PM (GMT)
oh linz dont feel dirty...youre havin fun. alot of people will probably disagree with me on that. yea its sort of like going to a club and dancing with a total loser and feeling guilty about it afterward....you shouldnt...its all in fun. but if you do it so long that you find yourself falling for her then you should tell her. ah what do i know...i suck at this stuff since most people here are of a different sexual orientation then me. hopefully you guys can help me as much when i run into guy trouble B)
Flyergirl - July 7, 2004 08:54 PM (GMT)
Oh, you shouldn't feel dirty cause you cut loose, I think everyone has to do that once in a while, even if it isn't your "normle" character. I am just like that, I have to really care about someone to even consider getting 'closer' with them, but I know that if it has been a long and lonely couple of months, you just have to let yourself go once in a while. Dont feel dirty, 'cause nothing you did was wrong.
Linz - July 8, 2004 01:14 PM (GMT)
Thanks Ladies. I don't think that I feel dirty because I feel like I did something wrong, it's more that it's not something that I normally do...or think to do. IT's TOTALLY out of character you know? ::Le Sigh::
carlamity - July 9, 2004 09:44 AM (GMT)
so, you feel good when you're making out with her
but, you feel bad afterwards.
you need to decide if the feeling good outweighs the feeling bad afterwards...
Linz - July 9, 2004 01:54 PM (GMT)
Carlamity, I think you are probably right. I need to figure out if getting off is worth the guilt...and I don't think that it is. (Sorry so bluntly put :/ ) Thanks again everyone. You've all helped a lot. :yes:
carlamity - July 11, 2004 05:02 PM (GMT)
Smidge - July 13, 2004 01:05 PM (GMT)
linz...Dude!
you have to realize that a relationship and a sexual relationship are two completely different things. I've dated people for four weeks and realized we've never even had an actual conversation. then I'm satisfied hormonally ...i dump them..things are okay. What will really screw you over is trying to take a sexual relationship and turning it into a real one by things like saying i love you...thise little things. Plus this girl probably wants more experience in the field and you're doing something that not only benefits you. so don't feel guilty...feel goood. Crack open your teachers manual and get ready to teach her a few lessons.
SaraHa
Linz - July 15, 2004 04:17 PM (GMT)
LOL NICE. Thanks again everyone. I'm working on getting into my getting off mindset. Hopefully...I'll be able to pull it off...keep my mind out of it.